Here I would like to quote lines from the song Better Man by my favorite band Pearl Jam,
Waitin, watchin the clock, its four oclock, its got to stop
Tell him, take no more, she practices her speech
As he opens the door, she rolls over...
Pretends to sleep as he looks her over
She lies and says shes in love with him, cant find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, cant find a better man...
Cant find a better man (2x)
Ohh...Talkin to herself, theres no one else who needs to know...
She tells herself, oh...
Memories back when she was bold and strong
And waiting for the world to come along...
Swears she knew it, now she swears hes gone
She lies and says shes in love with him, cant find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, cant find a better man...
She lies and says she still loves him, cant find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, cant find a better man...
Cant find a better man (2x)
Yeah...
..............Well I had my Convocation the past weekend and it was among my happiest moments ever. But, you know the feeling of lull after a storm, the feeling that sucks you into the empty darkness called loneliness. Till i was with friends, i was full of energy and was having a blast. Now, its all over and here i am on this lonely lap of the race called life. Over the past few days i have realized all of us cheat ourselves( at least i do), more often than is necessary. Whenever we make assumptions how others are going to behave, all we are doing is to tell a wishful lie to ourselves.
There is a certain law of attraction which i would like to quote here...If someone moves away from someone, they move closer to someone else"....But am not sure if the reverse is also true. Certain someone has moved away from and got closer to some others, but here i am alone with no one moving closer to me...FACTS OF LIFE :).......Now am off to listen to another Pearl Jam Song..Black....Here is my favorite line from that song....
I know someday you'll have a beautiful life
I know you'll be a sun
In somebody else's sky
But why
Why
Why can't it be
Why can't it be mine ...
I leave you with that but promise to bring some happier thoughts next time around, even though i ll have to cheat myself for that, BUT THE LIE IS A NECESSARY EVIL, AIN'T IT. Cya :)
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Monday, December 29, 2008
The Week that was
Ah MRA camp seems like its been ages,but here i am in a completely opposite mood compared to the one i had when i returned from MRA. Now as far as the learnings from MRA goes, the one thing i learned was to manage my relationships in life better. And that is something thats gone completely haywire in THE WEEK THAT WAS.
The week started off good as i got to meet a close friend from graduation who had come to give her exam.Being around all my close mates brought back the memories from the past.It was good while it lasted :) But i got a sour Christmas gift or maybe just maybe it was a blessing in disguise.Why choke something beautiful by pulling it close when you can admire it from a distance :) Here i remember a line i heard from a very special friend.....Promise only when you can keep it...Sometimes in life we make mistakes of saying things when we cannot handle it properly....Then why do we do such a thing???I believe its all about evaluating your personal abilities and state of mind.I am usually good at evaluating myself but on this occasion the emotions got better of me.Maybe i should have waited for another month which would have made sure i am back to normal and learnt from my past mistakes.Well life does not provide for any Ifs and buts.
My biggest flaw is that i am the best planner and the worst implementor. This has been the story of my life and being lost just doesnt help the cause.I am just not able to gauge the abstract flow around me.I now realize what i never understood my special friend kept saying that i dont realize most of the things, but i was lost :( No need to make excuses though.I have learned my lesson and will make sure nothing untoward happens hereon. Meanwhile i am keeping my fingers crossed about new years eve.All i can say is god sees the truth but waits.Cya :)
The week started off good as i got to meet a close friend from graduation who had come to give her exam.Being around all my close mates brought back the memories from the past.It was good while it lasted :) But i got a sour Christmas gift or maybe just maybe it was a blessing in disguise.Why choke something beautiful by pulling it close when you can admire it from a distance :) Here i remember a line i heard from a very special friend.....Promise only when you can keep it...Sometimes in life we make mistakes of saying things when we cannot handle it properly....Then why do we do such a thing???I believe its all about evaluating your personal abilities and state of mind.I am usually good at evaluating myself but on this occasion the emotions got better of me.Maybe i should have waited for another month which would have made sure i am back to normal and learnt from my past mistakes.Well life does not provide for any Ifs and buts.
My biggest flaw is that i am the best planner and the worst implementor. This has been the story of my life and being lost just doesnt help the cause.I am just not able to gauge the abstract flow around me.I now realize what i never understood my special friend kept saying that i dont realize most of the things, but i was lost :( No need to make excuses though.I have learned my lesson and will make sure nothing untoward happens hereon. Meanwhile i am keeping my fingers crossed about new years eve.All i can say is god sees the truth but waits.Cya :)
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Being Lost
One of my favorite fantasies has been to get lost somewhere in this big wide beautiful world.A place where no one can reach or disturb you.Well folks i did manage to satisfy my whims last month when i went on a long drive to Diveagarh,an isolated beach some 100 miles from pune.It was a trip in which i truly felt the feeling of being lost in the entirety.
How can you determine whether you are actually lost? Its a very simple test actually.Do the people living with you ever complain that you tend to ignore what they say and on the contrary you feel when did that happen.Well it happens to me all the time and i dont have a clue to it :) When i did a brief analysis of this fact,i realized that i dont ignore people,but am usually so lost that i dont even hear what they have to say.Now there is a certain part of my mind that is suggesting that i have i have become like a machine running a single process and Grass is responsible for all these malfunctions.The major portion still does not agree so it continues to be a theory of a lost mind.
Tomorrow i am going off to the MRA camp and hope i do get morally rehabilitated to something/someone functioning in a much better fashion.Will be back by weekend with the tales of the camp.Cya :)
How can you determine whether you are actually lost? Its a very simple test actually.Do the people living with you ever complain that you tend to ignore what they say and on the contrary you feel when did that happen.Well it happens to me all the time and i dont have a clue to it :) When i did a brief analysis of this fact,i realized that i dont ignore people,but am usually so lost that i dont even hear what they have to say.Now there is a certain part of my mind that is suggesting that i have i have become like a machine running a single process and Grass is responsible for all these malfunctions.The major portion still does not agree so it continues to be a theory of a lost mind.
Tomorrow i am going off to the MRA camp and hope i do get morally rehabilitated to something/someone functioning in a much better fashion.Will be back by weekend with the tales of the camp.Cya :)
Friday, November 21, 2008
Whats the topic BTW??
Hello everybody...A friend of mine asked me why have i stopped posting blogs...i assure you i havent deserted blogsphere and the reason for not posting anything for a while is that nothing of real importance came up..well thats wrong actually..u know na i am kinda lazy :) Anyways i am sorry and promise to post regularly from now on.The current post does demand for a bulletin of stuffs that happenned over the last few months..
Here it goes...
1.) MBA started off well with me doing exceedingly well and gaining a lot of knowledge about things the way they are in the current set up of my class and college.
2.) Semester started off and brought back the bad habit of sleeping in class :) Its highly enjoyable and every man or woman must try it :)
3.) Made some very good friends and some not so good :)
4.) College fest..techie Kaun was a success...thanks largely to one MC and the 5 OCs...and off course all those who contributed heavily in actually making sure the two day event was glitch free.
5.) Symbi Olympics came and went...My team roared into second round of cricket and limped out there....:(
6.) ERM...i missed AARAMBH...it has to be the most awesome day :) My first stage performance in MBA :)
7.) Joined Decibels..my college band and started jamming regularly.
8.) Continued with the bad habit of leaving things to be finished at the 12th hour and thus putting my efficiency under heavy stress testing :)
9.) Making a very special friend :>)
10.) Going through the motions of giving the exams.
11.) Participating in a geeky competition with a friend of mine only to find ourselves doing better than many belonging to top colleges and worse than some others...Lessons learnt..Mistakes shall not be repeated next time :)
12.) Back to practicing for Neev :) May we win :)
Now that most of the headlining events are outta way, i take a bow and promise to be regular in my posts from now on. Thanks for all ur support..:-)
Here it goes...
1.) MBA started off well with me doing exceedingly well and gaining a lot of knowledge about things the way they are in the current set up of my class and college.
2.) Semester started off and brought back the bad habit of sleeping in class :) Its highly enjoyable and every man or woman must try it :)
3.) Made some very good friends and some not so good :)
4.) College fest..techie Kaun was a success...thanks largely to one MC and the 5 OCs...and off course all those who contributed heavily in actually making sure the two day event was glitch free.
5.) Symbi Olympics came and went...My team roared into second round of cricket and limped out there....:(
6.) ERM...i missed AARAMBH...it has to be the most awesome day :) My first stage performance in MBA :)
7.) Joined Decibels..my college band and started jamming regularly.
8.) Continued with the bad habit of leaving things to be finished at the 12th hour and thus putting my efficiency under heavy stress testing :)
9.) Making a very special friend :>)
10.) Going through the motions of giving the exams.
11.) Participating in a geeky competition with a friend of mine only to find ourselves doing better than many belonging to top colleges and worse than some others...Lessons learnt..Mistakes shall not be repeated next time :)
12.) Back to practicing for Neev :) May we win :)
Now that most of the headlining events are outta way, i take a bow and promise to be regular in my posts from now on. Thanks for all ur support..:-)
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
This is MBA baby!!!
Hello dear reader..hope u'll are going great guns.I joined my MBA course last week and have adjusted quite well already.Have made some new friens also.But, the best thing that has happenned is that i have managed to cut down heavily on my expenses. The point is, when you are actively involvedin constructive activities then you wont hav anytime to indulge into useless activities and your mind is also free of any kind of negativism.enough of philosophy i guess... moving onto the situation of my college, well everything is all fine.Gotta tell you one thing though, college is full of politicians amd one needs to watch every step as they set out to conquer the world with an MBA degree cuz the path to achieve this is not a cake walk anyways...Chalo cya later..got to attend a class now :)
Monday, May 19, 2008
Control
Its been ages since i last posted...well sorry for that.To all who wanna know the reason behind it, i have been homesick,literally. Ever since i came back home, i have been suffering from one illnes or the other.Now it seems i am okay so here i am discussing something new today.Something thats really been on my mind in the near past.Especially since i have taken up occult studies,the topic of our present discussion keeps coming through as one of importance.
What does control mean??Why does a person want control??How does he retain control??
Control according to me is something that highlights the need for a human being to dominate a situation as he/she feels desirable.So whats wrong with that??Nothing really....but when the domain of control is our day to day lifestyle and relationships, its something thats kinda sick and bothering.A normal human being likes to stay in control of his emotions and the situations that affect you.But, in order to control the situation man becomes so used to it that he becomes a control freak and gets used to manipulating situations at the cost of other fellow beings.Naah..no one would want to control their loved ones...this is exactly what i used to feel,but thanks to the people around me....i am wide awake now.I have over the years grown enough to realize what a certain action of one means.If its not control what else can you owe the following situations to.....A boyfriend asking his girlfriend not to talk to certain someone....A girlfriend asking her boy to do her bidding or just fuck off.....A child asking his mum for a new video game console or he wont go to school.
What all these situations show is that control has been built into us since our birth.We need control and dominance to survive as much as we need air.If we lose a bit of control,we feel stressed.Now its time that i reveal one of the best kept secrets of occultists....Yoga and meditation is not for calming you or bringing you closer to god.Its just to recharge your "control battries".After a session of meditation we feel better cuz the control is back.
Lets deviate a bit and have a look at stress.A person feels stressed when things are not going the way he wants or if lots of things are being expected or demanded of him by a boss,mom,dad,siblings,lovers,friends etc.In all these situations we are losing control.Thus, in scientific terms stress is directly proportional to loss of control.So to get over this stress we try and get the control back and the fastest way to it is through meditation.
Occultists have practised meditation through the history of mankind so as to strengthen their aura. This aura helps them to control their loacle as well as the elements of life.This particular phenomenon has been identified and is being heavily used by people to reduce stress in the cut-throat competition in the todays corporate structure.
There are always two paths to follow...Good or Evil....If we use control till we are managing ourselves and not adversely destroying someone elses happiness,its all cool.But this is not the situation generally,as people keep manipulating others for their own benefit.Its not the end of the world though,cuz this is the era of "HOMO DEITUS" and if God like humans do not understand their responsiblities,superior gods would make them understand sooner or later.I wanna say a lot of things today cuz frankly i am seriously pissed at the happennings in and around me where people are just breaking all the rules and ethics of humanity to gain control.Think about all this, i ll be back soon wid more.
p.s. Read more about occultism and homo deitus :)..Cheers
What does control mean??Why does a person want control??How does he retain control??
Control according to me is something that highlights the need for a human being to dominate a situation as he/she feels desirable.So whats wrong with that??Nothing really....but when the domain of control is our day to day lifestyle and relationships, its something thats kinda sick and bothering.A normal human being likes to stay in control of his emotions and the situations that affect you.But, in order to control the situation man becomes so used to it that he becomes a control freak and gets used to manipulating situations at the cost of other fellow beings.Naah..no one would want to control their loved ones...this is exactly what i used to feel,but thanks to the people around me....i am wide awake now.I have over the years grown enough to realize what a certain action of one means.If its not control what else can you owe the following situations to.....A boyfriend asking his girlfriend not to talk to certain someone....A girlfriend asking her boy to do her bidding or just fuck off.....A child asking his mum for a new video game console or he wont go to school.
What all these situations show is that control has been built into us since our birth.We need control and dominance to survive as much as we need air.If we lose a bit of control,we feel stressed.Now its time that i reveal one of the best kept secrets of occultists....Yoga and meditation is not for calming you or bringing you closer to god.Its just to recharge your "control battries".After a session of meditation we feel better cuz the control is back.
Lets deviate a bit and have a look at stress.A person feels stressed when things are not going the way he wants or if lots of things are being expected or demanded of him by a boss,mom,dad,siblings,lovers,friends etc.In all these situations we are losing control.Thus, in scientific terms stress is directly proportional to loss of control.So to get over this stress we try and get the control back and the fastest way to it is through meditation.
Occultists have practised meditation through the history of mankind so as to strengthen their aura. This aura helps them to control their loacle as well as the elements of life.This particular phenomenon has been identified and is being heavily used by people to reduce stress in the cut-throat competition in the todays corporate structure.
There are always two paths to follow...Good or Evil....If we use control till we are managing ourselves and not adversely destroying someone elses happiness,its all cool.But this is not the situation generally,as people keep manipulating others for their own benefit.Its not the end of the world though,cuz this is the era of "HOMO DEITUS" and if God like humans do not understand their responsiblities,superior gods would make them understand sooner or later.I wanna say a lot of things today cuz frankly i am seriously pissed at the happennings in and around me where people are just breaking all the rules and ethics of humanity to gain control.Think about all this, i ll be back soon wid more.
p.s. Read more about occultism and homo deitus :)..Cheers
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Exams
The thing about exams is that the nerds love it and the rest despise it. In my college, most of the students depend heavily on the luck factor to pass the exams. Luck not for getting an easy paper, but for getting a lenient examiner and someone sitting around them who knows all the answers.
I am a lazy student who hates to study much and usually relies on his intelligence and god's divine interruption to see him through.Another reason why i dont study properly for my exams is cuz most of the times exams come in package deals.If my internal exams were help during the Australian tour, my externals are clubbed with the IPL. Whats my fault if these organizers dont care 'for innocent children like me....'
When i was a kid, i read somewhere.."if you are not preparing to succeed, you are preparing to fail." Whenever i am wasting my time over some stupid thing, i remember this phrase and say to myself..."at least i m preparing for something" lol(:-)...
But dear reader this my final exam of graduation so i cant expect to rely on anything other than sheer hard work to see me through.So i ll leave you alone for a couple of weeks.Things do seem to be on the up in my life....Icing on the cake for this good period of my life would be if i ace my exams and by next sunday have a good job to boast of as well.Wish me luck...:-)
I am a lazy student who hates to study much and usually relies on his intelligence and god's divine interruption to see him through.Another reason why i dont study properly for my exams is cuz most of the times exams come in package deals.If my internal exams were help during the Australian tour, my externals are clubbed with the IPL. Whats my fault if these organizers dont care 'for innocent children like me....'
When i was a kid, i read somewhere.."if you are not preparing to succeed, you are preparing to fail." Whenever i am wasting my time over some stupid thing, i remember this phrase and say to myself..."at least i m preparing for something" lol(:-)...
But dear reader this my final exam of graduation so i cant expect to rely on anything other than sheer hard work to see me through.So i ll leave you alone for a couple of weeks.Things do seem to be on the up in my life....Icing on the cake for this good period of my life would be if i ace my exams and by next sunday have a good job to boast of as well.Wish me luck...:-)
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