Ah MRA camp seems like its been ages,but here i am in a completely opposite mood compared to the one i had when i returned from MRA. Now as far as the learnings from MRA goes, the one thing i learned was to manage my relationships in life better. And that is something thats gone completely haywire in THE WEEK THAT WAS.
The week started off good as i got to meet a close friend from graduation who had come to give her exam.Being around all my close mates brought back the memories from the past.It was good while it lasted :) But i got a sour Christmas gift or maybe just maybe it was a blessing in disguise.Why choke something beautiful by pulling it close when you can admire it from a distance :) Here i remember a line i heard from a very special friend.....Promise only when you can keep it...Sometimes in life we make mistakes of saying things when we cannot handle it properly....Then why do we do such a thing???I believe its all about evaluating your personal abilities and state of mind.I am usually good at evaluating myself but on this occasion the emotions got better of me.Maybe i should have waited for another month which would have made sure i am back to normal and learnt from my past mistakes.Well life does not provide for any Ifs and buts.
My biggest flaw is that i am the best planner and the worst implementor. This has been the story of my life and being lost just doesnt help the cause.I am just not able to gauge the abstract flow around me.I now realize what i never understood my special friend kept saying that i dont realize most of the things, but i was lost :( No need to make excuses though.I have learned my lesson and will make sure nothing untoward happens hereon. Meanwhile i am keeping my fingers crossed about new years eve.All i can say is god sees the truth but waits.Cya :)
Monday, December 29, 2008
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Being Lost
One of my favorite fantasies has been to get lost somewhere in this big wide beautiful world.A place where no one can reach or disturb you.Well folks i did manage to satisfy my whims last month when i went on a long drive to Diveagarh,an isolated beach some 100 miles from pune.It was a trip in which i truly felt the feeling of being lost in the entirety.
How can you determine whether you are actually lost? Its a very simple test actually.Do the people living with you ever complain that you tend to ignore what they say and on the contrary you feel when did that happen.Well it happens to me all the time and i dont have a clue to it :) When i did a brief analysis of this fact,i realized that i dont ignore people,but am usually so lost that i dont even hear what they have to say.Now there is a certain part of my mind that is suggesting that i have i have become like a machine running a single process and Grass is responsible for all these malfunctions.The major portion still does not agree so it continues to be a theory of a lost mind.
Tomorrow i am going off to the MRA camp and hope i do get morally rehabilitated to something/someone functioning in a much better fashion.Will be back by weekend with the tales of the camp.Cya :)
How can you determine whether you are actually lost? Its a very simple test actually.Do the people living with you ever complain that you tend to ignore what they say and on the contrary you feel when did that happen.Well it happens to me all the time and i dont have a clue to it :) When i did a brief analysis of this fact,i realized that i dont ignore people,but am usually so lost that i dont even hear what they have to say.Now there is a certain part of my mind that is suggesting that i have i have become like a machine running a single process and Grass is responsible for all these malfunctions.The major portion still does not agree so it continues to be a theory of a lost mind.
Tomorrow i am going off to the MRA camp and hope i do get morally rehabilitated to something/someone functioning in a much better fashion.Will be back by weekend with the tales of the camp.Cya :)
Friday, November 21, 2008
Whats the topic BTW??
Hello everybody...A friend of mine asked me why have i stopped posting blogs...i assure you i havent deserted blogsphere and the reason for not posting anything for a while is that nothing of real importance came up..well thats wrong actually..u know na i am kinda lazy :) Anyways i am sorry and promise to post regularly from now on.The current post does demand for a bulletin of stuffs that happenned over the last few months..
Here it goes...
1.) MBA started off well with me doing exceedingly well and gaining a lot of knowledge about things the way they are in the current set up of my class and college.
2.) Semester started off and brought back the bad habit of sleeping in class :) Its highly enjoyable and every man or woman must try it :)
3.) Made some very good friends and some not so good :)
4.) College fest..techie Kaun was a success...thanks largely to one MC and the 5 OCs...and off course all those who contributed heavily in actually making sure the two day event was glitch free.
5.) Symbi Olympics came and went...My team roared into second round of cricket and limped out there....:(
6.) ERM...i missed AARAMBH...it has to be the most awesome day :) My first stage performance in MBA :)
7.) Joined Decibels..my college band and started jamming regularly.
8.) Continued with the bad habit of leaving things to be finished at the 12th hour and thus putting my efficiency under heavy stress testing :)
9.) Making a very special friend :>)
10.) Going through the motions of giving the exams.
11.) Participating in a geeky competition with a friend of mine only to find ourselves doing better than many belonging to top colleges and worse than some others...Lessons learnt..Mistakes shall not be repeated next time :)
12.) Back to practicing for Neev :) May we win :)
Now that most of the headlining events are outta way, i take a bow and promise to be regular in my posts from now on. Thanks for all ur support..:-)
Here it goes...
1.) MBA started off well with me doing exceedingly well and gaining a lot of knowledge about things the way they are in the current set up of my class and college.
2.) Semester started off and brought back the bad habit of sleeping in class :) Its highly enjoyable and every man or woman must try it :)
3.) Made some very good friends and some not so good :)
4.) College fest..techie Kaun was a success...thanks largely to one MC and the 5 OCs...and off course all those who contributed heavily in actually making sure the two day event was glitch free.
5.) Symbi Olympics came and went...My team roared into second round of cricket and limped out there....:(
6.) ERM...i missed AARAMBH...it has to be the most awesome day :) My first stage performance in MBA :)
7.) Joined Decibels..my college band and started jamming regularly.
8.) Continued with the bad habit of leaving things to be finished at the 12th hour and thus putting my efficiency under heavy stress testing :)
9.) Making a very special friend :>)
10.) Going through the motions of giving the exams.
11.) Participating in a geeky competition with a friend of mine only to find ourselves doing better than many belonging to top colleges and worse than some others...Lessons learnt..Mistakes shall not be repeated next time :)
12.) Back to practicing for Neev :) May we win :)
Now that most of the headlining events are outta way, i take a bow and promise to be regular in my posts from now on. Thanks for all ur support..:-)
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
This is MBA baby!!!
Hello dear reader..hope u'll are going great guns.I joined my MBA course last week and have adjusted quite well already.Have made some new friens also.But, the best thing that has happenned is that i have managed to cut down heavily on my expenses. The point is, when you are actively involvedin constructive activities then you wont hav anytime to indulge into useless activities and your mind is also free of any kind of negativism.enough of philosophy i guess... moving onto the situation of my college, well everything is all fine.Gotta tell you one thing though, college is full of politicians amd one needs to watch every step as they set out to conquer the world with an MBA degree cuz the path to achieve this is not a cake walk anyways...Chalo cya later..got to attend a class now :)
Monday, May 19, 2008
Control
Its been ages since i last posted...well sorry for that.To all who wanna know the reason behind it, i have been homesick,literally. Ever since i came back home, i have been suffering from one illnes or the other.Now it seems i am okay so here i am discussing something new today.Something thats really been on my mind in the near past.Especially since i have taken up occult studies,the topic of our present discussion keeps coming through as one of importance.
What does control mean??Why does a person want control??How does he retain control??
Control according to me is something that highlights the need for a human being to dominate a situation as he/she feels desirable.So whats wrong with that??Nothing really....but when the domain of control is our day to day lifestyle and relationships, its something thats kinda sick and bothering.A normal human being likes to stay in control of his emotions and the situations that affect you.But, in order to control the situation man becomes so used to it that he becomes a control freak and gets used to manipulating situations at the cost of other fellow beings.Naah..no one would want to control their loved ones...this is exactly what i used to feel,but thanks to the people around me....i am wide awake now.I have over the years grown enough to realize what a certain action of one means.If its not control what else can you owe the following situations to.....A boyfriend asking his girlfriend not to talk to certain someone....A girlfriend asking her boy to do her bidding or just fuck off.....A child asking his mum for a new video game console or he wont go to school.
What all these situations show is that control has been built into us since our birth.We need control and dominance to survive as much as we need air.If we lose a bit of control,we feel stressed.Now its time that i reveal one of the best kept secrets of occultists....Yoga and meditation is not for calming you or bringing you closer to god.Its just to recharge your "control battries".After a session of meditation we feel better cuz the control is back.
Lets deviate a bit and have a look at stress.A person feels stressed when things are not going the way he wants or if lots of things are being expected or demanded of him by a boss,mom,dad,siblings,lovers,friends etc.In all these situations we are losing control.Thus, in scientific terms stress is directly proportional to loss of control.So to get over this stress we try and get the control back and the fastest way to it is through meditation.
Occultists have practised meditation through the history of mankind so as to strengthen their aura. This aura helps them to control their loacle as well as the elements of life.This particular phenomenon has been identified and is being heavily used by people to reduce stress in the cut-throat competition in the todays corporate structure.
There are always two paths to follow...Good or Evil....If we use control till we are managing ourselves and not adversely destroying someone elses happiness,its all cool.But this is not the situation generally,as people keep manipulating others for their own benefit.Its not the end of the world though,cuz this is the era of "HOMO DEITUS" and if God like humans do not understand their responsiblities,superior gods would make them understand sooner or later.I wanna say a lot of things today cuz frankly i am seriously pissed at the happennings in and around me where people are just breaking all the rules and ethics of humanity to gain control.Think about all this, i ll be back soon wid more.
p.s. Read more about occultism and homo deitus :)..Cheers
What does control mean??Why does a person want control??How does he retain control??
Control according to me is something that highlights the need for a human being to dominate a situation as he/she feels desirable.So whats wrong with that??Nothing really....but when the domain of control is our day to day lifestyle and relationships, its something thats kinda sick and bothering.A normal human being likes to stay in control of his emotions and the situations that affect you.But, in order to control the situation man becomes so used to it that he becomes a control freak and gets used to manipulating situations at the cost of other fellow beings.Naah..no one would want to control their loved ones...this is exactly what i used to feel,but thanks to the people around me....i am wide awake now.I have over the years grown enough to realize what a certain action of one means.If its not control what else can you owe the following situations to.....A boyfriend asking his girlfriend not to talk to certain someone....A girlfriend asking her boy to do her bidding or just fuck off.....A child asking his mum for a new video game console or he wont go to school.
What all these situations show is that control has been built into us since our birth.We need control and dominance to survive as much as we need air.If we lose a bit of control,we feel stressed.Now its time that i reveal one of the best kept secrets of occultists....Yoga and meditation is not for calming you or bringing you closer to god.Its just to recharge your "control battries".After a session of meditation we feel better cuz the control is back.
Lets deviate a bit and have a look at stress.A person feels stressed when things are not going the way he wants or if lots of things are being expected or demanded of him by a boss,mom,dad,siblings,lovers,friends etc.In all these situations we are losing control.Thus, in scientific terms stress is directly proportional to loss of control.So to get over this stress we try and get the control back and the fastest way to it is through meditation.
Occultists have practised meditation through the history of mankind so as to strengthen their aura. This aura helps them to control their loacle as well as the elements of life.This particular phenomenon has been identified and is being heavily used by people to reduce stress in the cut-throat competition in the todays corporate structure.
There are always two paths to follow...Good or Evil....If we use control till we are managing ourselves and not adversely destroying someone elses happiness,its all cool.But this is not the situation generally,as people keep manipulating others for their own benefit.Its not the end of the world though,cuz this is the era of "HOMO DEITUS" and if God like humans do not understand their responsiblities,superior gods would make them understand sooner or later.I wanna say a lot of things today cuz frankly i am seriously pissed at the happennings in and around me where people are just breaking all the rules and ethics of humanity to gain control.Think about all this, i ll be back soon wid more.
p.s. Read more about occultism and homo deitus :)..Cheers
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Exams
The thing about exams is that the nerds love it and the rest despise it. In my college, most of the students depend heavily on the luck factor to pass the exams. Luck not for getting an easy paper, but for getting a lenient examiner and someone sitting around them who knows all the answers.
I am a lazy student who hates to study much and usually relies on his intelligence and god's divine interruption to see him through.Another reason why i dont study properly for my exams is cuz most of the times exams come in package deals.If my internal exams were help during the Australian tour, my externals are clubbed with the IPL. Whats my fault if these organizers dont care 'for innocent children like me....'
When i was a kid, i read somewhere.."if you are not preparing to succeed, you are preparing to fail." Whenever i am wasting my time over some stupid thing, i remember this phrase and say to myself..."at least i m preparing for something" lol(:-)...
But dear reader this my final exam of graduation so i cant expect to rely on anything other than sheer hard work to see me through.So i ll leave you alone for a couple of weeks.Things do seem to be on the up in my life....Icing on the cake for this good period of my life would be if i ace my exams and by next sunday have a good job to boast of as well.Wish me luck...:-)
I am a lazy student who hates to study much and usually relies on his intelligence and god's divine interruption to see him through.Another reason why i dont study properly for my exams is cuz most of the times exams come in package deals.If my internal exams were help during the Australian tour, my externals are clubbed with the IPL. Whats my fault if these organizers dont care 'for innocent children like me....'
When i was a kid, i read somewhere.."if you are not preparing to succeed, you are preparing to fail." Whenever i am wasting my time over some stupid thing, i remember this phrase and say to myself..."at least i m preparing for something" lol(:-)...
But dear reader this my final exam of graduation so i cant expect to rely on anything other than sheer hard work to see me through.So i ll leave you alone for a couple of weeks.Things do seem to be on the up in my life....Icing on the cake for this good period of my life would be if i ace my exams and by next sunday have a good job to boast of as well.Wish me luck...:-)
Friday, March 7, 2008
Really Lost
Helo ppl long time no see.....Well ma mistake i've been away from blogsphere for the last couple of weeks,i.e ever since the euphoria of exams took over.Lets stop this bullshit and get down to what i want to discuss.
Right now i am going through some king of identity crisis and i dont know where am i headed.The problem is that soo many things are bothering me that i can hardly prioritize.Also the problem of indecision has come back to haunt me all over again. jobs or studies? marketing or finance or IT? Rhythm guitarist or bassist? Metal or classical rock? friends or lovers?? Life always comes to a full circle and makes us feel inadequate about everything. I read somewhere, "Right now your life is exactly what you want it to be." Initially i did not endorse this statement but now the meaning has started to sink in. How else can you explain my negligent attitude towards studies leading to a couple of backlogs in last semester.I got exactly what i wanted.So basically i need to start working hard if i want to set things right in my life.I shall be busy, very busy for the next couple of months so may not post anything new. Come back towards the end of April for more insights into my mind.Till then adios :-)
Right now i am going through some king of identity crisis and i dont know where am i headed.The problem is that soo many things are bothering me that i can hardly prioritize.Also the problem of indecision has come back to haunt me all over again. jobs or studies? marketing or finance or IT? Rhythm guitarist or bassist? Metal or classical rock? friends or lovers?? Life always comes to a full circle and makes us feel inadequate about everything. I read somewhere, "Right now your life is exactly what you want it to be." Initially i did not endorse this statement but now the meaning has started to sink in. How else can you explain my negligent attitude towards studies leading to a couple of backlogs in last semester.I got exactly what i wanted.So basically i need to start working hard if i want to set things right in my life.I shall be busy, very busy for the next couple of months so may not post anything new. Come back towards the end of April for more insights into my mind.Till then adios :-)
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
N.M.A.P
Woooh...i am back from Bombay and nothing can compare the amazing feeling i have right now.As far as title of this blog goes,it means, No More Adventures Please (N.M.A.P).You must be wondering what exactly happened on my Bombay trip.Lots of things actually.
I ll start with the train journey from pune to bombay. I took a ticket for second class and guessed it shall suffice for a reserved seat only to be proved wrong by the TT. Luckily though, the TT was kind enough to provide me and my friend with a seat at a nominal additional price of 30 rupees. Now the thing is our luck seemed to desert us here.
We experienced Mumbai local's rush hour first hand plus the delays cuz of some freak accident. After reaching our destination we searched for an hour,but sadly couldn't find a decent hotel. One place we went to was a 2 room shady apartment managed by a lady who seemed more like a pimp than a hotel manager. And next thing you know we were running out of that place at break neck speeds.
After trying every maneuver in the book to find a place to spend the night, we finally called our trusted senior "joy" who stayed 30 mins away and he was kind enough to invite us to his place. Joy's apartment was small but nice and as soon as i lay down,i dozed off only to be awakened by joy's phone alarm. It was 5 in the morning,time when life of a working guy starts in mumbai. After getting ready we rushed to our exam center. As far as the exam is concerned it went well. The real show started after exam.
The thing about Indian police that puzzles me the most is they trouble harmless people while turning a blind eye to scoundrels and criminals. This time they decided to trouble me and my friend. As we were enquiring about trains to Pune at Dadar station, this policewalla called us and started enquiring about our whereabouts. He checked our id's,our luggage and even our cell phones. When he couldn't find anything against us , he bore an irritated look on his face and asked us to get lost.
Thanking our stars that we weren't carrying any alcohol, we found the first way out of that place,took a bus and left for pune.Only thing that added to our misery was the delay in reaching pune cuz the tyre of our bus punctured and they took an hour to replace it.Still i am safely back home and 2 beers down as i post this blog. All in all it was a great learning experience and 3 cheers to pune.It is indeed the city to live in..:-)
I ll start with the train journey from pune to bombay. I took a ticket for second class and guessed it shall suffice for a reserved seat only to be proved wrong by the TT. Luckily though, the TT was kind enough to provide me and my friend with a seat at a nominal additional price of 30 rupees. Now the thing is our luck seemed to desert us here.
We experienced Mumbai local's rush hour first hand plus the delays cuz of some freak accident. After reaching our destination we searched for an hour,but sadly couldn't find a decent hotel. One place we went to was a 2 room shady apartment managed by a lady who seemed more like a pimp than a hotel manager. And next thing you know we were running out of that place at break neck speeds.
After trying every maneuver in the book to find a place to spend the night, we finally called our trusted senior "joy" who stayed 30 mins away and he was kind enough to invite us to his place. Joy's apartment was small but nice and as soon as i lay down,i dozed off only to be awakened by joy's phone alarm. It was 5 in the morning,time when life of a working guy starts in mumbai. After getting ready we rushed to our exam center. As far as the exam is concerned it went well. The real show started after exam.
The thing about Indian police that puzzles me the most is they trouble harmless people while turning a blind eye to scoundrels and criminals. This time they decided to trouble me and my friend. As we were enquiring about trains to Pune at Dadar station, this policewalla called us and started enquiring about our whereabouts. He checked our id's,our luggage and even our cell phones. When he couldn't find anything against us , he bore an irritated look on his face and asked us to get lost.
Thanking our stars that we weren't carrying any alcohol, we found the first way out of that place,took a bus and left for pune.Only thing that added to our misery was the delay in reaching pune cuz the tyre of our bus punctured and they took an hour to replace it.Still i am safely back home and 2 beers down as i post this blog. All in all it was a great learning experience and 3 cheers to pune.It is indeed the city to live in..:-)
Sunday, February 17, 2008
RUDE....awakening
Rudely Dudley Cudley Fiddly Mudley smugly............oh hi u r here....
I was preparing for my exam thats why am practicing adverbs.Anyways now that we are here let's share some thoughts....Random ones to say the least..
Well i am very rude,that's the opinion of a friend of mine.Should i think about it??
Even if i am rude why should it be of any concern to anyone??Why should i even give a f%#@ about it?? But as one of my best friends put it,i am not like that i do give a f%@# about what others think about me,why is a friend pissed with me or why is someone avoiding me??Huh...i sound pretty stupid in here,still....Now i am apparating away to some happy thoughts...Wanna come along??Why not mate?come on it will be fun..you'll enjoy it....
........knock knock knocking on the heaven's door.......Do you recognize the place? its some auditorium. And do u recognize the band?..Well its my band.And the bassist that you see up there...that's me.This was my first ever stage performance and my proudest moment of college life.This performance is dedicated to all the promises that have been kept,in spite of all the hurdles...You know i had promised 2 of my best friends exactly one year ago that i would be performing on that stage in an year's time.I kept my my promise.
I have to go to Bombay tomorrow as i have an exam so see you in two days time.Meanwhile,would you keep your promise and come back to check whats new on my mind?:-)
I was preparing for my exam thats why am practicing adverbs.Anyways now that we are here let's share some thoughts....Random ones to say the least..
Well i am very rude,that's the opinion of a friend of mine.Should i think about it??
Even if i am rude why should it be of any concern to anyone??Why should i even give a f%#@ about it?? But as one of my best friends put it,i am not like that i do give a f%@# about what others think about me,why is a friend pissed with me or why is someone avoiding me??Huh...i sound pretty stupid in here,still....Now i am apparating away to some happy thoughts...Wanna come along??Why not mate?come on it will be fun..you'll enjoy it....
........knock knock knocking on the heaven's door.......Do you recognize the place? its some auditorium. And do u recognize the band?..Well its my band.And the bassist that you see up there...that's me.This was my first ever stage performance and my proudest moment of college life.This performance is dedicated to all the promises that have been kept,in spite of all the hurdles...You know i had promised 2 of my best friends exactly one year ago that i would be performing on that stage in an year's time.I kept my my promise.
I have to go to Bombay tomorrow as i have an exam so see you in two days time.Meanwhile,would you keep your promise and come back to check whats new on my mind?:-)
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Valentine's Day Special
Heeehooohaaahaaahaah.......
Where am i???What are those sounds???I cant see any light???What is this place???
God i am scared....HELP!!!!!!!!!!
.....buzzzzzz....buzzzzz...If u wanna get down u gotta take her out..Cocaine...
WOOH i was dreaming.thanks to Mr.Clapton whose track is my ring tone i got up just before the devil could eat me up.Without thinking too much about my dream i wake up to valentine's day and start preparing for a very busy day at college.It is the second day of my college fest and today's the final of my event.
Event went well in spite of some major bottlenecks leaving me free to kill time watching other events and practicing for my big night tomorrow when i give my first ever stage performance as a guitarist.Evening went into preparing for my flatmate's birthday bash and later i went to a very cool place for dinner.
Food,drinks and ambiance everything was awesome.Had a great time and drove back at a crazy speed to be there for my friend's birthday.After ceremonial cake cutting and birthday bumps we started drinking.After downing a couple of beers here i am blogging to the world my valentine's day.I have to say my day was awesome,still i can feel the void which can only be filled by an angel who ll make my heart sing...again :)
Where am i???What are those sounds???I cant see any light???What is this place???
God i am scared....HELP!!!!!!!!!!
.....buzzzzzz....buzzzzz...If u wanna get down u gotta take her out..Cocaine...
WOOH i was dreaming.thanks to Mr.Clapton whose track is my ring tone i got up just before the devil could eat me up.Without thinking too much about my dream i wake up to valentine's day and start preparing for a very busy day at college.It is the second day of my college fest and today's the final of my event.
Event went well in spite of some major bottlenecks leaving me free to kill time watching other events and practicing for my big night tomorrow when i give my first ever stage performance as a guitarist.Evening went into preparing for my flatmate's birthday bash and later i went to a very cool place for dinner.
Food,drinks and ambiance everything was awesome.Had a great time and drove back at a crazy speed to be there for my friend's birthday.After ceremonial cake cutting and birthday bumps we started drinking.After downing a couple of beers here i am blogging to the world my valentine's day.I have to say my day was awesome,still i can feel the void which can only be filled by an angel who ll make my heart sing...again :)
Monday, February 11, 2008
Destiny's Child
8th February,2008 will remain etched in my memory for a long time to come.It was a day that showed both sides of the coin to me .i.e. ecstasy and pain.
Morning started with cold wave whipping across my face,sending the chill to the innermost cell of my bone.An hour later i was sitting in the assembly hall of SCIT with a lot of nervous faces sitting around me waiting for their turn to participate in Group Discussions.Doubts and fear started taking control of me.I didn't know if i was shivering because of cold or it was just nervousness showing its effects...
Any doubts i had regarding my GD evaporated as soon as i started speaking and i knew at that moment i was gonna ace it.As if my new found confidence was not enough,i got a call from someone informing me that i had been selected as a bassist for host performance in my college fest.This acted as a booster and i knew it then and there that come what may,i was going to get through.My interviews went quite good.
Later,while going to my college for band practice i got caught up in traffic for an hour. The frustration of traffic freaked me out so much that i met with an accident.This did act as a dampener and proved the fact that pain keeps us humble.Far away in the horizon sun was setting,taking away the light from my eyes but promising to be back with new hope and opportunities topped with problems in equal measure in 12 hours time.
Morning started with cold wave whipping across my face,sending the chill to the innermost cell of my bone.An hour later i was sitting in the assembly hall of SCIT with a lot of nervous faces sitting around me waiting for their turn to participate in Group Discussions.Doubts and fear started taking control of me.I didn't know if i was shivering because of cold or it was just nervousness showing its effects...
Any doubts i had regarding my GD evaporated as soon as i started speaking and i knew at that moment i was gonna ace it.As if my new found confidence was not enough,i got a call from someone informing me that i had been selected as a bassist for host performance in my college fest.This acted as a booster and i knew it then and there that come what may,i was going to get through.My interviews went quite good.
Later,while going to my college for band practice i got caught up in traffic for an hour. The frustration of traffic freaked me out so much that i met with an accident.This did act as a dampener and proved the fact that pain keeps us humble.Far away in the horizon sun was setting,taking away the light from my eyes but promising to be back with new hope and opportunities topped with problems in equal measure in 12 hours time.
Sunday, February 3, 2008
The disaster called soccer
Sorry for not posting for a long time.Been busy off late what with so many exams all over me.
My results have been pretty decent,still the future remains quite uncertain.This rat race is taking a toll on my creativity.Otherwise also,things haven't been great for me especially after the new years.I got my first backlog in college life,one of my closest friends stopped talking to me, projects got delayed etc.To sum it all up things haven't progressed the way i wanted them to in the new years.My new years resolution was to quit smoking up,but all these incidents have pushed me towards Hash all over again.
Today there was my intra-college soccer competition and we lost 9-0.I just can't help but realize that i am losing everything right now.How can i let go if there isn't any security????I am completely lost today.To the world i am normal and happy right now,but inside i am lonely,sad and hoping for someone to take me out of this shell of darkness while trying myself to find the path to happyness with a y....
My results have been pretty decent,still the future remains quite uncertain.This rat race is taking a toll on my creativity.Otherwise also,things haven't been great for me especially after the new years.I got my first backlog in college life,one of my closest friends stopped talking to me, projects got delayed etc.To sum it all up things haven't progressed the way i wanted them to in the new years.My new years resolution was to quit smoking up,but all these incidents have pushed me towards Hash all over again.
Today there was my intra-college soccer competition and we lost 9-0.I just can't help but realize that i am losing everything right now.How can i let go if there isn't any security????I am completely lost today.To the world i am normal and happy right now,but inside i am lonely,sad and hoping for someone to take me out of this shell of darkness while trying myself to find the path to happyness with a y....
Saturday, January 26, 2008
eh.......U did it again
"To err is human, but to commit the same mistake time and again isn't.You believe that you are right and don't listen to anything i say but is that gonna help you in anyway.I am all but a passing milestone in your life.I ll pass into archives sooner or later,but where will you go carrying the emotional burden which has already ruined your youth
and the danger of you losing yourself looms large."
Note- I haven't completed this one but will do so soon.This post is inspired by a dream and some reality.Thanks
and the danger of you losing yourself looms large."
Note- I haven't completed this one but will do so soon.This post is inspired by a dream and some reality.Thanks
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