Da Cheat that I am

Here I would like to quote lines from the song Better Man by my favorite band Pearl Jam,

Waitin, watchin the clock, its four oclock, its got to stop
Tell him, take no more, she practices her speech
As he opens the door, she rolls over...
Pretends to sleep as he looks her over
She lies and says shes in love with him, cant find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, cant find a better man...
Cant find a better man (2x)
Ohh...Talkin to herself, theres no one else who needs to know...
She tells herself, oh...
Memories back when she was bold and strong
And waiting for the world to come along...
Swears she knew it, now she swears hes gone
She lies and says shes in love with him, cant find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, cant find a better man...
She lies and says she still loves him, cant find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, cant find a better man...
Cant find a better man (2x)
Yeah...
..............Well I had my Convocation the past weekend and it was among my happiest moments ever. But, you know the feeling of lull after a storm, the feeling that sucks you into the empty darkness called loneliness. Till i was with friends, i was full of energy and was having a blast. Now, its all over and here i am on this lonely lap of the race called life. Over the past few days i have realized all of us cheat ourselves( at least i do), more often than is necessary. Whenever we make assumptions how others are going to behave, all we are doing is to tell a wishful lie to ourselves.
There is a certain law of attraction which i would like to quote here...If someone moves away from someone, they move closer to someone else"....But am not sure if the reverse is also true. Certain someone has moved away from and got closer to some others, but here i am alone with no one moving closer to me...FACTS OF LIFE :).......Now am off to listen to another Pearl Jam Song..Black....Here is my favorite line from that song....

I know someday you'll have a beautiful life
I know you'll be a sun
In somebody else's sky
But why
Why
Why can't it be
Why can't it be mine ...

I leave you with that but promise to bring some happier thoughts next time around, even though i ll have to cheat myself for that, BUT THE LIE IS A NECESSARY EVIL, AIN'T IT. Cya :)

Whats the topic BTW??

Hello everybody...A friend of mine asked me why have i stopped posting blogs...i assure you i havent deserted blogsphere and the reason for not posting anything for a while is that nothing of real importance came up..well thats wrong actually..u know na i am kinda lazy :) Anyways i am sorry and promise to post regularly from now on.The current post does demand for a bulletin of stuffs that happenned over the last few months..

Here it goes...
1.) MBA started off well with me doing exceedingly well and gaining a lot of knowledge about things the way they are in the current set up of my class and college.
2.) Semester started off and brought back the bad habit of sleeping in class :) Its highly enjoyable and every man or woman must try it :)
3.) Made some very good friends and some not so good :)
4.) College fest..techie Kaun was a success...thanks largely to one MC and the 5 OCs...and off course all those who contributed heavily in actually making sure the two day event was glitch free.
5.) Symbi Olympics came and went...My team roared into second round of cricket and limped out there....:(
6.) ERM...i missed AARAMBH...it has to be the most awesome day :) My first stage performance in MBA :)
7.) Joined Decibels..my college band and started jamming regularly.
8.) Continued with the bad habit of leaving things to be finished at the 12th hour and thus putting my efficiency under heavy stress testing :)
9.) Making a very special friend :>)
10.) Going through the motions of giving the exams.
11.) Participating in a geeky competition with a friend of mine only to find ourselves doing better than many belonging to top colleges and worse than some others...Lessons learnt..Mistakes shall not be repeated next time :)
12.) Back to practicing for Neev :) May we win :)

Now that most of the headlining events are outta way, i take a bow and promise to be regular in my posts from now on. Thanks for all ur support..:-)

Really Lost

Helo ppl long time no see.....Well ma mistake i've been away from blogsphere for the last couple of weeks,i.e ever since the euphoria of exams took over.Lets stop this bullshit and get down to what i want to discuss.
Right now i am going through some king of identity crisis and i dont know where am i headed.The problem is that soo many things are bothering me that i can hardly prioritize.Also the problem of indecision has come back to haunt me all over again. jobs or studies? marketing or finance or IT? Rhythm guitarist or bassist? Metal or classical rock? friends or lovers?? Life always comes to a full circle and makes us feel inadequate about everything. I read somewhere, "Right now your life is exactly what you want it to be." Initially i did not endorse this statement but now the meaning has started to sink in. How else can you explain my negligent attitude towards studies leading to a couple of backlogs in last semester.I got exactly what i wanted.So basically i need to start working hard if i want to set things right in my life.I shall be busy, very busy for the next couple of months so may not post anything new. Come back towards the end of April for more insights into my mind.Till then adios :-)